Referral-versary

A year ago .... we saw this face for the first time.

I remember such a feeling of disbelief and wonder that our child had a face and a name. There was never a question that we would say yes to the referral. We had prayed and believed that the child that was sent to us would be the child that God intended to add to our family. So despite difficult details in his file, we said yes.

Nine months later ... it is harder than I could have imagined ....

and I'm jealous ... of those whose stories seem to have just fallen into place.

and I want things to be easier ....

So, I need to keep looking at these pictures ... and remember to connect with the child he was then and his very difficult story ... so that I can renew - on a daily basis - my compassion and empathy ... so that I can be the instrument of healing that I've been called to be for our son.

What a difference a year makes for all of us!